New dimensions

Everytime I am deciding to do something, I'm just keeping it in my mind and doing it. Ofcourse it sounds strange, but when I am thinking too much if I should do this or that finally I'm doing nothing but lying on my bed in depression or lazyness. It have started two years ago I guess, maybe more when I realized that my life is not so interesting, my personal relationships crushed and I'm bored, compeletely bored of everyting. I've tried to do a great bunch of things to fulfill this empty hole inside me thinking everyday about religion, nature, human beings ect. I've also studied at the university, working everywhere I want, but it was not It.
I forgot to mension that all this time my mom have been here in USA, actually in Georgia, waiting for her "little child".
It was February, 2009 when I came to Georgia for vacation and this nice person at the Immigration controll asked me to follow him. Uh, I was embarrased and dissapointed because my flight was terrible because of all this children, teenagers and other screamy-behaviored people around me. So I've been sitting there for a while waiting for my "turn". I need to say that all my documents were all seted up and I didn't do anything wrong. My "mentor" was almost speechless. He told me one thing which I am considering now as a destiny, he said that if I wouldn't stay in USA my Permanent Resident card would be tooked from me and I'll never be able to come. It was not so scary at that moment, but then huge black cloud of fear settled on my poor head. I realized that I can lose my treasure, my mom.
I left my apartement, my friends, my boyfriend, and now I feel released.
Huray!