Thoughts...

We are living in a beautiful place,named Earth. Of course our existence here consists not only of material things, but spiritual too. A lot of thoughts are visiting me from time to time, about humans, our hidden power, nature, our relationships with each other and our planet, but today I want to talk to you and I hope that you'll hear me.
Now we have a tough time, I mean we as humans and tough time is for disasters which happens all over the world. Didn't you think about it at least one time in your life, sure you did! Don't you think about what happens now, why it happens and who is culpable? How we can help ourselves to solve these problems and should we do anything?
Nowadays or planet suffers from lots of disasters, I've picked only one, but so much powerful and destructive, that nobody solved it yet. I am talking about Oil spill in the Gulf of Mexico. You can see bunches of articles on this topic every morning on internet or in your favorite newspaper but what all of them say? I've rad some of them and feel myself disappointed. Are we talking about something profound or we are just chatting around and trying to put the responsibility on to others. Politicians astonish me every time when they are trying to find a "solution" and not lose money. They are always failed at this point. We are people, we are connected and we should be aware not about money but about environment, not only because we must leave all this wonderful creatures for next generations, but also for ourselves.
Now, after about a month after catastrophe I see nothing but horror. As for me, we should take all responsibility and show our government that we care!
Here what I've red in a Fox news.
Hazen cities the aftermath of the Amoco Cadiz and the Exxon Valdez disasters, two spills where chemical detergents led to ecological problems. In 1978, the oil tanker Amoco Cadiz split in two three miles off the coast of Normandy, releasing about 227,000 tons heavy crude oil that ultimately stained nearly 200 miles of coastline. The spill site was so large that only the areas of greatest economic impact were treated with detergents. Large areas in the more remote parts of the coast went untreated.

"The untreated coastal areas were fully recovered within five years of the Amoco Cadiz spill," says Hazen. "As for the treated areas, ecological studies show that 30 years later, those areas still have not recovered."
I have a scene that we are killing our planet and if we wouldn't stop it right now, then we wouldn't have anything to cure, because we will lose it.
SO people, get together, volunteer, do anything what you can, but don't turn a blind eye on these problem.

New dimensions

Everytime I am deciding to do something, I'm just keeping it in my mind and doing it. Ofcourse it sounds strange, but when I am thinking too much if I should do this or that finally I'm doing nothing but lying on my bed in depression or lazyness. It have started two years ago I guess, maybe more when I realized that my life is not so interesting, my personal relationships crushed and I'm bored, compeletely bored of everyting. I've tried to do a great bunch of things to fulfill this empty hole inside me thinking everyday about religion, nature, human beings ect. I've also studied at the university, working everywhere I want, but it was not It.
I forgot to mension that all this time my mom have been here in USA, actually in Georgia, waiting for her "little child".
It was February, 2009 when I came to Georgia for vacation and this nice person at the Immigration controll asked me to follow him. Uh, I was embarrased and dissapointed because my flight was terrible because of all this children, teenagers and other screamy-behaviored people around me. So I've been sitting there for a while waiting for my "turn". I need to say that all my documents were all seted up and I didn't do anything wrong. My "mentor" was almost speechless. He told me one thing which I am considering now as a destiny, he said that if I wouldn't stay in USA my Permanent Resident card would be tooked from me and I'll never be able to come. It was not so scary at that moment, but then huge black cloud of fear settled on my poor head. I realized that I can lose my treasure, my mom.
I left my apartement, my friends, my boyfriend, and now I feel released.
Huray!